My Personal Spiritual Journey
My history with spirituality started at a young age as my mother was involved in the “New-Age” discipline (at the time (circa the ’70s and ’80s)), so I absorbed some of those beliefs during those studies. Much later in my life I formally studied religion at Wayland Baptist University here in Anchorage, Alaska. Throughout my formal studies, my lovely bride of more than three decades remained a devout Christian, and I’m sure, prays nightly for my Christian redemption. She provided a constant explanation and understanding of the Christian mainstream theology. However, I personally struggle with being mainstream anything, much less religious. This led to the study of “the Nation of Islam”, or the Muslim faith. In much the same way the Christian faith demanded obedience to an authoritative figure within the theology The formalized way to celebrate seemed to be nothing more than a display of the faithful, with no real practical benefit. This was followed by Buddhism, Confucianism, and many different monotheistic religions throughout the world. I also noted regional alterations to each of the religions, which led me to ask “what exactly is the core belief of this doctrine”? Surprisingly enough, they all came down to several key values. Ultimately, it reduced down to the need for my cognitive mind to understand, and the need for my heart to feel the intrinsic connection. These two factors are what should drive each of us to ask ourselves, “does this feel right?” If not, we need to change.
Following my education at Wayland, I embarked on a journey of understanding both: my own theology, as well as gaining compassion to understand other’s needs for religion.
Looking back into the simplicity of understanding our world without the interference of modern Christian influences. I have chosen to recognize the value of my Danish ancestry with the study, adoption, and now, teaching, of the ways of “Old Norse”. I have come to understand that this physical life is about what “I choose to do with it”, and I have no dependence on anyone, or anything else. to create my success and/or failure. I have been given the “legends” of men who walked the earth before me, as attributes I aspire to, however, ultimately my success lies squarely with me.
I am at peace with the idea of passing from this life, knowing that I will be at peace. I no longer stress the modern-day world’s idea of the “sins” of those around me, until me or my family is affected, then I react accordingly. I treat everyone the same way they treat me. If they exhibit negative energy, I am but a reflection. If they come with open arms and heart, I am again, a reflection. I seek to educate others, but never shun or shame them for believing differently than I do.
Peace and coexistence are fundamentally excluded from every “organized monotheistic religion” by the very method in which it was dispersed throughout the world. In almost every case, the modern mainstream religions of the current era have forcefully imposed their will on every culture it has come in contact with. Ultimately, organized religion was created and (in many cases) forced to ensure societal control could be secured and maintained. Lessons in obedience can be found woven throughout organized monotheistic religions, as well as collections of accounts to testify to its validation. The clearly defined exclusion of differences embedded within each organized monotheistic religion undermines the very fiber of society. Thereby, a concept of population control can be clearly connected with the exponential growth of these mainstream religions throughout the world.
In my paper currently under construction/review (possibly published early 2022), I hypothesize that:
My theory proposes that the use of monotheistic religion to control the behavior of society was based on the general ignorance of the early general population, its inheritance and transfer between generations is purely based on the intrinsic values of the immediate environment. Control using the premise of a “religion” was exerted in sometimes subtle methods, but more often forcefully, allowing the powers within this religious order to manipulate these societies, while “brainwashing” the population, as well as ingraining a set of intrinsic values that will be carried to the modern-day populations of all nations throughout the world.
Please understand that I do not condemn those who choose to study within the ideologies that I identify throughout my studies, as another facet I have (personally) discovered, is that most of these “organized monotheistic religions” were put in place, and enforced, to ensure population control within that distinct region. Many of whom I have worked with, and interviewed throughout the decades of study, have stories and accolades about their individual worship of whatever theology they believe in. I hold no prejudices as to how people see their deity or interact with that deity. However, I hope to be able to help those people understand that being different is not bad, or evil, just different. My hope is to teach all those I reach the underlying concepts of “true peace” by not being in conflict, and being accepting of being different.
As my studies continued further back, I understood the carnage that these modern monotheistic religions caused. As I read the accounts from the many victims throughout history who have been “forced” to adopt those religious beliefs of individuals who infected the new worlds, I became greatly saddened by these recent generations. I have read accounts where “missionaries” destroying indigenous peoples by either: crushing their culture and traditions by rewriting their oral histories, or by infecting them with germs that those indigenous peoples had no immunity, effectively sentencing them to death. What really “converted” me was the realization that it was considered acceptable in the studies of those practices? Mass murder was sanctioned in their efforts to bring this “good word” to the heathens of the World.
This single point was the most painful in my spiritual awakening, knowing that many of the immediately preceding generations may have played a hand in, or been responsible for the destruction of these cultures, which is a primary reason I have chosen to promote this other lifestyle, and these cultures. They were right from the very beginning, it was the arrogance of others that caused their eradication, it will be knowledge and wisdom that brings it back.
I have struggled with many of the main concepts behind each of the ideologies, as I engaged in an in-depth examination of each, as well as interviewing the end-result (or parishioner) which defined the level of distribution of the base doctrine.
- A single entity at which to place credit, or blame, for dramatic events that intersect our existence.
- A single entity at which to explain the supernatural.
- General social rules of order. Behavior modification and/or manipulation.
- General punishments for defined crimes.
By being able to identify these core values of each religious ideology, it allowed me to properly contrast other doctrines against each other to determine the methodology at which it was derived.
Back to the basics. When discussing religious beliefs, we must identify the different religions throughout the world are based on an underlying ideology. Notice, I didn’t use the term theology, because we are outsiders looking in at this point. Holding each religion inside its own slide under the microscope.
Mainstream Doctrine. One of the first things that come to mind whenever discussions of the mainstream religions are the way the religion was distributed. In many cases, each of the mainstream religions forced followers into submission, in some cases taking everything away from individuals who wouldn’t convert. Hundreds of years were bundled into the adoption of these religious beliefs, in some very limited cases, this practice is still in use today. This fact alone tells me that there is something systemically wrong with a doctrine when it has to be “forced”.
- Monotheistic religions include Muslim, Christianity, Judaism, Buddhism, Sikh, Confucius’s, as well as several others.
- Creationism. Most real biblical scholars will agree that, given the anthropological studies, that this concept is not the case when it comes to the stories contained in most of the holy books.
- Evolution. This is the antithesis of Christianity as it says that humans evolved from single-cell creatures to the incredibly complex animals we have become.
- Intelligent Design. This is the compromise that many Christians have come up with to meet with the evolutionists. In this theory, God created the path of evolution.
Traveling further back in history, before the rise of monotheistic worship with Judaism, we find Ancient Greek, Egyptian, and Norwegian cultures celebrated many gods, who were tasked with manipulating a particular aspect of human life. Worship ranged from feasting to mass parties, or battle, depending on which god one needed to appease. Human and animal sacrifice was sometimes used within the realm of inclusion here.
Paganism Doctrine as per the early Christian church that still holds a grasp of many societies today.
- Polytheism is the attempted understanding of spirituality from ancient times, bundled with a large miscommunication. Attempting to Understand that the many spirits that we interact with every day are guided by multiple deities who are responsible for many different facets of our lives. Polytheistic worshippers understand that their deities sought to help them in many portions of their lives, although there are very few of these left in a full practice today. Predominantly they (monotheistic religions) want to reserve other beliefs to idle trinkets of history, to be used as punchlines at parties, or namesakes in modern video games.
- Spirituality is the idea that “a creator” enriched the lives of all living things with a will and a spirit of their own. That humans must work in harmony with those other spirits around them to create peace and tranquility.
While there is plenty of benefits, the strongest would be our (humankind’s) magnetic attraction for social interaction. We are genetically engineered to be social with one another. To this extent, we can quickly draw visible lines between methods of societal control, to the detrimental beliefs within each of the major ideologies. Potential detriments of major doctrines
- Nonbelief is a punishable offense.
- Non-declaration is denial, thereby a punishable offense.
- Some subscribe to the necessary ambassador, or priest who can speak to the deity on behalf of the parishioner.
- Some subscribe to necessary actions, such as hand gestures, or dressing certain ways.
- Attendance to events and location semi-required.
- Skáldskapr: Why not believe in yourself? -
In every-day conversation with anyone, they can tell you which acts that are considered evil, or bad, based on what monotheism has enforced throughout the history of the world. The inter-generational, intrinsic value judgement of other’s actions has defined monotheism from its inception. Essentially judging others based on some preconceived notion of right and wrong. When considering the multitude of splits in all forms on monotheism to accommodate some new generation thoughts, I am convinced it was the opinion of a limited few that has established these values in which has been passed from generation to generation.
- Skáldskapr: Why forn-sidr? -
My name Dr. Mark Weisman, and as the introduction states, I can trace my lineage back at least 18 generations (researched so far) in Northern Denmark. My great-grandmother, born in Bjerby Sogn, Denmark, immigrated to the United States in 1898 with my great grandfather. Me personally, I have studies and received a doctors degree for religious studies, as well as degrees in computer science, and psychology. I have served for over 25+ years in the security industry, and 20+ years in Information Technology, and a formerly active duty Marine. Throughout all the studies I have completed both formerly and not, I now understand I was trying to find my way back home. Home, as in my family heritage, and home in my religious beliefs.
- Skáldskapr: The path of The Clan -
The value of family has weakened throughout the generations, leaving a large gap in our modern-day understanding of what it means to be a family, or our ancestors may have referred to it as a clan. This idea stems from different people being joined, either: by blood, or by purpose, to create a better immediate community. Throughout the Norse legends, there are many clans that rally to the cause to support our ancestors in their quest for their future. Our ancestors, who lived those generations ago were not much different than we are today, as far as their need for family bonds.
- Skáldskapr: The path of understanding. -
A common misconception is that there occurs a time in ones life where everything will make sense. Where the trials and tribulations that we have undertaken will all make sense. I’m here to say that time never comes. Even today, many people struggle to understand the reason behind the recent plague that infected the earth. Today I hope to impart on you some wisdom I’ve learned throughout my many years of life. Hopefully, I can pass it along to you in a way that makes sense for you, and you can incorporate it into your collective wisdom.
- Skáldskapr: The silence of power. -
Taking a cue from my ancestors on this one, at the risk of sounding like an internet meme. What really is the true power of a boy or man in modern America? Let’s talk about that, what does it mean? What does it mean in today’s society to be a direct descendent of a Viking warrior?
- Skáldskapr: The balance of power. -
For all the men out there who feel the need to verbally, or physically assault your female companion, I’m here to tell you, you are stupid. Yea, I said it. Like those you have chosen to bully, I’m not one of. I’m not afraid of any immortal, or mortal being on earth. No, I’m not bragging, I’m just right with the spirits, and my ancestors, therefore I have no fear. But alas I digress, that is only a part of our story today. Our words of wisdom, and poetry, will hopefully help those men understand the value of their woman or partner. I will say that one of the greatest tragedies I see in modern relationships is when a man feels that his partner is unequal. Either she is placed high on a pedestal to be admired and worshiped, or beneath him and keep close to the heel. However, real marriages are teams. Like any team there will be times when one carries the other, some days the man carries the woman, other days the woman carries the man, most of their lives should be spent walking together. They say that a woman protecting her children is the most fearsome force on the planet, however, I would argue that a woman defends her “loves” this way, all of them. The balance of the blade In the times of our ancestors, we judged a sword by its point of balance, Too close to the pommel, the sword was imbalanced and unwieldily, Too far from the pommel, the sword became heavy in combat. If the sword was pitted and forged inaccurately, it was sure to fail in battle, If it was too sharp, it might become stuck in an adversary or object, The sword was our guarantee to come home or go to Valhalla. So too, is the balance of our choice of our wives, They are sacred creatures, who are our equal, They are not above, nor below us, simply back to back to fight in both directions. Our woman’s mind is razor-sharp to protect her children, and sound the alarm, Her world rests in the sweet breath of her newborn child, She is willing to risk everything for her family, and that includes me. My wife is my equal, she is my partner for life, My wife is willing to die with me at her side, as I am with her at mine, A gift to me to cherish forever, to love, and to support in every way, she is each day. Unlike the sword, she can be razor-sharp, to help me clear the path for us, Unlike the sword, she can be near my heart, and yet, we will be balanced, With her, I am balanced. Without her, I am unwieldy. Those who seek to reduce these precious creatures are doomed to fail for eternity, Those who feel compelled to force love clearly do not understand the power of love, To those, I bow my head and hope you get to experience real love. That feeling that demands that you are close to her, The delicate skin of flower pedal smoothness, the slight fragrance of purity, Those beautiful eyes of emerald beneath crystal waters gazing at you, The undeniable force that draws you away from other tasks to her, The longing to hear her melodious voice say your name, The overwhelming need to provide anything she needs, without her asking, This my friends is love. They say that love is kind, love is patient, They lie. Love is powerful, love is the brutal truth, It can be mean and cut deep, love leaves scars Love is pulling the entire cart by yourself because you would rather die by 1000 swords than to see her struggle with the cart. Love may mean crying yourself to sleep because you can’t understand each other. This my friends is love. The greatest part to this is, this is exactly the same way she feels about you. My bride of over thirty years now is the stronger of us two. She has raised five children, three to adulthood, and yet her hands of steel turn to lambswool for each child that enters our home. She is strong and independent. She doesn’t need me. She wants to be with me. She is my shield-maiden, able to sound an alarm or hold the line until I can get my sword. She is as awesome as the promise of a new day.
- Skáldskapr: Confusing kindness with weakness. -
Today, I welcome you to a new platform that I call the Alaska Outlaw Forn Sidr. This idea comes from my ancestry of Germanic-Danes who called southern Denmark home. I’d like to assure those listeners who are new to the Alaska Outlaw, and of you here at Forn Sidr, our purpose is to spread the word of hope and peace. So, for those of you who are not Danish, or have not studied Germanic history, may not understand what Forn Sidr means, I am here to help. Forn Sidr roughly translates to english as “Ancient Customs”. It is here that I will offer teachings about coping with modern-day life here in America. So, to start the show I figured I’d talk about a subject that I see all over the inter webs, and that is the mistaken identity of weakness. Many assume that one is weak when one doesn’t engage in violent actions, or reactions. When a man is more intrinsic, or subdued, he is immediately considered to be weak, and this, quite possibly, could be no further from the truth. In the days of my Norwegian ancestors, a great deal of victory could be obtained by encouraging the opponent to strike first. By having the ability and courage to determine the strike pattern and type, one could execute a more effective counteract. To this point, I will create poetry to further express this message. In this modern day world of moving toward a more feminine, or politically correct behavior, one needs to consider what we are really needing to happen. One must also be cognizant that, although some say women are to be discounted for war, I strongly disagree. Women are much better equipped to work “smarter” and not harder, and therefore should be treated equally in this respect. While the more modern religious practices favor men over women, I believe they have sadly under-estimated a woman’s value. To further explain the idea of power, my ancestors would have written poetry to explain the basic understanding The disguise of strength The sea disguises her power and strength under sometimes very still covers. She exerts her power by continually eroding the shorelines as she slowly creeps towards the distant mountains. Relentlessly she chips away at the rock faces that attempt to hold her back. Intentionally she exposes the cracks in the large stones to break them apart, tumbling them to her depth. Yet, those who dare, they may face her raw, unbridled power as she shreds the vessels who attempt to traverse her. Those who venture out into her calm demeanor may travel far enough to witness the brutal power she withholds. Constantly she gives life to the many creatures who call her home, and protects them from the elements of the above world, keeping their world in balance. Throughout the world she can move mountains of ice, shattering them, then moving them thousands of miles from their origin. The sea also provides the final journey for brave warriors to Valhalla, softly reaching her tendrils around the vessel to gently accept the warrior and transport them to Valhalla. While she can be a sultry temptress, she has a fiery temper that can consume a ship full of brave men, taking them to their doom. Strength does not have to be on display at all times, with a reserved power being of more concern. Many still lakes can be very deep, one needs to be aware of a man’s spirit, before one considers a violent confrontation. In much the same way the beautiful clear skies may draw upon its hidden power to crush the travel of man, forcing even the strongest warriors to bow knee. The power contained within the hidden space of air can be unleashed at any moment without so much as a hint to its true desire for destruction.
- Skáldskapr: Something to Imagine -
The idea behind the song, and life in general, is to obtain harmony. Obtaining harmony is easy when you look past the definition of religious, to the person behind it.
- Skáldskapr: Freedom of thought. -
Today I would like to discuss the idea for thinking for ourselves. To fully engage in this conversation we must dig deep into our our psyche to discover how our thoughts and morals are constructed. We must venture beyond Pavlov, beyond all the philosophers before him, to fully understand the necessity of belonging.
- Skáldskapr: The path of right. -
The issue with the modern world we live in, is that we’ve moved away from a fact-checking world to accepting the perception of much of the world around us. This fundamental change has seemingly caused more destruction to much of the social fabric that humans had woven up to the release of technology. Most are content with the acceptance of the half-based truths that splash across their social media feeds.